today is christmas eve.. and its the first christmas without seeing grandad. when i woke up this morning the first thing that i thought about was how was i going to get through the chrstmas day? everything seems weird and although i put on a front deep down its hurting so much.... I want him here with us! I'll always remember Grandad buying my princess barbie when i was younger, he had chosen it himself. nan and grandad used to come down on the night time and have look at all our presents that we had only just put away. this year everything is different, the people we love and want are not with us like uncle Eddie and Auntie Betty and of course grandad. my constant thought is why couldn't grandad be here one more christmas, just so that we could prove that he was loved so much. love you Grandad xx sweet dreams xx